Nicole Kidman Reveals She Wakes Up ‘Crying and Gasping’ After Death of Her Parents

Nicole Kidman is getting candid about life after losing both her parents. In an interview for the cover story of British GQ, the actress shared how she is coping following the death of her mother, Janelle Ann Kidman, who passed in September, almost 10 years after her father, Dr. Antony Kidman, died in 2014. “I cry, I do. I consider myself open to emotions. More so now. Even more so,” she told the outlet before admitting that she wakes up in the middle of the night. “Mortality. Connection. Life coming and hitting you. And loss of parents and raising children and marriage and all of the things that go into making you a fully sentient human. I’m in all of those places. So life is, whew,” she said, adding, “It’s definitely a journey. And it hits you as you get older how it’s a wake up at 3am crying and gasping kind of thing. If you’re in it and not numbing yourself to it. And I’m in it. Fully in it.”